This year I debunk “that” myth.
The one I read about in a self help book 20 years ago, that said "it is better to have as many friends as I can. To be fair and nice to everyone and keep myself quiet and let things work themselves out." This year Karma may get a little push. When people hurt me I will not immediately make excuses for them, I will heal myself from the verbal stab they have injured me with. I may even stand up for and defend myself.
I’m looking at the person I was in my twenties, the person that I “just was.” Sure, I tired to search my soul and understand who I was inside, but a lot of what I did was impulsive and: just who I was. Now I search through all the crap that was surrounding the impulsive me, and I can say that was the genuine me vs that was me being some that I wanted everyone to like. I understand better... what survived and what didn’t, why things happened the way they did. Justification.
Maybe 2018 will be the year of justification?
I put up an event invitation for the march of women this year and one of my co workers from 20 years ago, (Even though I felt completely awkward and unconnected with most people back then.) that I’ve managed to hang onto through facebook, liked my post. “Yep that’s why I love her, that’s why she’s still there.” I said to myself.
We were all the same age in our twenties and the other people we worked with were older, and had been through their 20’s before. Now I’m working with people who are just getting to know me, who are younger “and wiser” then I am, and things are different.
SO it’s a new learning curve and new lessons. Lets go 2018.