Wednesday, January 2, 2013

bunnies pulling a sleigh

A lot of families have things that bind them together, trips, genealogy, projects, art. We have books, and we know help on a special pedestal is “The Hobbit.”

 Now we don’t look to the hobbit for guidance, no we have never sat down at the kitchen table and discussed its literary greatness, but it’s always been there. And both Sister Duncan and I learned about it in school when Papa Duncan read it to our grade five classes. When a friend needs a book for a journey, or a adventure for a child, The Hobbit (or cry the beloved country) are the first ones I mention. True story.

So after the hype and love of Lord of the Rings, I couldn’t wait for The Hobbit to come out on Video. I have a huge crush on Martin Freeman and know Peter Jackson could do no wrong.

This is what I was expecting

Then Papa Duncan went to see the movie dressed as Gandalf at a special showing.

Then over the holidays, with a gift certificate I got at work, I went to see The Hobbit.

First of all I went by myself, which is supposed to be a great show of strength and independence. I used to love it in the city but not so much in B’town. I sat with three chairs on one side of me and two on the other, and with plenty more to choose from a family of five decided they wanted to sit there. “Well there are five of us,” she said. So I moved over with a couple beside me and them on the other, there was no longer an “I want to be here by myself buffer.”

I was surrounded by a stoic audience. Martin Freeman, who after a few years on what’s that show? (the office)knows how to be funny. But he was one brand of funny and then there was the dry humor of the rest of the movie, I wasn’t expecting the two entities to oppose each other, so I didn’t enjoy the Martin Freeman show vs the rest the movie, and it made it even worse that my audience didn’t respond to either of them.

And then there were bunnies pulling a sleigh.

The music seemed to be the same, recycled from Lord of the Rings, and in places didn’t fit. There were scenes when castles and buildings moved too fast to see. And then there were bunnies pulling a sleigh.

I made it to the Elves and felt like I was sitting in the theatre being uninspired, when I could be sitting at home and I could have a nap. So I stepped over the family of five who had taken my seat and I believe I stomped on someone’s bag of popcorn.

Nope, I didn’t stay for Gollum.

On the plus side I know what to expect, so I’ll download it when it comes out, drink a beer and see if I get it the second time through. A Duncan doesn’t give up on a Hobbit that quickly. But that and my recent enjoyment watching movies in my own home has greatly shaped my anticipation of Les Mis. I no longer want to see Les Mis in the theatre.

So if you excuse me I have to check out my copy of The Hobbit and see if Tolkien does in fact use the term “Dwarf Scum.”

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Resolutions and Retrospect

I feel like I’m being watched, touched, examined, like everything I do is being studied. It’s a grand lesson in how to be me. To me life is not real, unless something is learned. For many years my resolution has been to learn to love myself and every year I get here and I don’t know love. I’ve learned  lot of lessons but I don’t know love. This year I’m going to love myself, I’ve spent 30 cough years “learning” how to do it. This year I’m going to love.

I want Milford to be “finished” this year, I want to tell the story for world storytelling day and I would like to edit it enough to share with people as a story rather than a work in progress.  This year will be about editing the pieces that I already have (and creating new ideas) I was listening to a jesse cook piece and thought every note is right where it’s supposed to be and that’s how I need to see my writing every word every picture right where it’s supposed to be, the feeling of this song is how I want my editing to go.


I want to do one hour of writing everyday but I also need to spend time relaxing. Last night I had Nachos a Strongbow and watched a movie and feel absolutely alive today. I have to still have date nights with myself even though I’m at home every night with myself. I also learned that I like watching movies at home rather than in the theatre, this after a bad experience watching the hobbit in the theatre and great experiences in my house American Tail the way I wanted to.


In retrospect: I have a new apartment (a very cold apartment.) I have two writing desks in my apartment and no more excuses not to write. My job although having the same title has changed in how it’s completed. I’ve decided to stay in B town a bit longer and I have a cat. That’s been the greatest change. To go from longing to have a cat to taking care of a cat; it’s all new. This New Year.